It’s hard to see Eric in bed, eyes closed, and with no activity on a sunny day like today. Three weeks ago we had a BBQ in our backyard, and the weather was just like today. Today I’m sitting here by myself, with a glass of wine and talking to hundreds of supporting people. There are so many “if only I had….” thoughts in my head and I’d do anything to go back in time. Both Eric and I needed a big change in life, we often talked about it, we wanted to enjoy life more with less stress and we wanted a family. We had made the decision to change our lives by moving to Sweden; my home country. The plan was to sell the house, pack up all our stuff, take the dogs and move to Stockholm in August. Everything was going like planed; the house was on the market, I had job interviews, and I gave my notice at work.
In less then a second our lives changed to the worst nightmare you can think off. Today was my last day at work and I don’t know how financially I’m going to make it. But I’m hopeful and not really worried; I’m sure things will be ok. Just as I’m sure Eric will come out of this ok. It’s going to take years of rehab, patience and support from friends and family, and I know he will be ok.
Yesterday’s back surgery went well but the doctor wasn’t satisfied with the placement of one of the screws along his spine. Eric was back in the operation room today to have one screw adjusted. There will be another CT Scan tomorrow morning to check if it’s now ok.